Ever get the feeling your living in a unending soap opera?

Ever get the feeling your in a unending soap opera? Or approaching a serious train wreck, that is going to turn out very disasterious. You meet some gal on Facebook, you try a in home living situation and find, that its very uncomfortable to say the least so you step aside and for religious reasons, and mental relief she moves back with her family. Trying to save your company despite your riding family's objections you try a long distance thing with the basis she pays back the MC what it paid for her hospital bills and loss of revenue while she was here in the first place. You nearly reach a point of being accused of cheating, being unfaithful, and just messing around, amongst other sins, yet for the MC's sake you stick with her. 
So you try to be nice and sweet, only to be promised all so many extras, only to find out they do not happen, or a bank card calamity happens so you spend an entire two weeks, or so plus your weekend solving that for HER. Then you get accused that your messing around, Again, and oh she's feeling neglected. So you decide to do your community duty and go to a city council meeting, because of the MC. You come home, turn off the phone, turn off the computer and look at turning in early. But nope, you as toew duty requires you go on a call, and so you need to keep your phone on. 
Upon doing your log ins and data transfers for the toew call, you look on FB, only to find that your soon to be lady is pissed at you and the world. Yet nothing really evil or goofy happened at all. 
It's times like this that I start to think am I really ready for this? Is she the one I'm going to come home to? If so what kind of home will I come home to? How many fights, calls to the cops, jealousy fits, and so on, is there going to be in the future. 
Is she going to finally trust you, because in real life and love ultimate trust is one in the same. If you don't trust someone, you really don't love someone. 
The shop in itself is worth keeping for two reasons, amongst others, but the main one is so I have a place to go that isn't filled with other women and two allows me to not be at a bar, to work off the troubles at home. Two it gives me a way to make albeit a bit more money that SSI, Marine pension, and of course the MC's radio station. But does she understand that? Nope, if I'm at the shop, I must be with another woman up to no good. Oh there is another woman, on 6 wheels with Chevy written on it, by the name of LexiBelle. Beyond that there's Dark Angel the rollback. Beyond that I bust my ass for her and what life there might be, yet , I'm accused of being the worst being on Earth since Lucifer. 
There are several reasons, that I put off marrying her for a year. The main one is economics, the other is that she needs to get her head on straight, that means not being in this constant circle of mistrust, self pity, and low self worth and lack of self esteem and self confidence. The entire thing is what it is, but it needs real repair or it ain't going to happen. One of the reasons, I redirected my home plate search to Malad Idaho rather than diving back into Twin Falls, is that in Twin Falls Idaho is about 40,000 more people and 20,000 of them women that I know that are pleasing to the eye. If SheWolf gets jealous over the few in Etown here etc, she'd have fits in Twin Falls. By reducing the population of super hotties, might give SheWolf and I the chance to connect. The other reason for the change is the Club, took a long look at the bandwidth infrastructure of Twin Falls, and while a bigger city, fact is internet hasn't really improved. So thought is put the damn radio thing in Salt Lake City or extreme immediate area, where 1gig Google connection is possible, plus being that close to other media outlets means more progress in that regard. 3 days at the shop, Malad has no other towing service all the way to Rockford up through Arbon Valley to Weston Idaho. The closest is in McCammon Idaho, or Tremonton Utah. That's a big chunck of turf to make a toew foot print. 
It was cool that a few of the MC showed up to the Council meeting, and having Vanessa show up to be in the meeting was great. Vanessa hasn't changed even for her age only within maybe 3 years younger than I. Even Vanessa is for SheWolf and I if SheWolf can get over all these demons in her closet. 
Any mile, question is would any of you go this distance with a woman that was this abusing to you, or would you attempt to fix it, and make a life with her. 
Yep an unending soap opera. I just hope I can avoid the up coming train wreck.
TTYLY